Just a vent thread

I just finished 4 killer matches. First match, I was Plague and loaded into Ormond. 2 gens got done before the first down and they kept sticking to gens. They didn't cleanse and my one fountain was in the corner of the map with no unfinished gens around it. ~6 minutes in, 1 gen left, 3 people slugged, final person finished the last gen, and 1 downed guy has Adrenaline and stands up. He picks up another guy, and now there's 3 people running around. All my pressure gone. One person dies and all I get in the end-game chat is an "oof".

That game ruined my mood and made the next three games miserable. I did well in those three, but I felt so ######### and so bad from the first game that I didn't find any enjoyment from them. The only thing I got from this play-session is a looming feeling of depression and a kind of hate towards this game that I only just recently started to lose.

It's just a shame that as soon as I stopped feeling burnt out and have time to play what is supposed to be my favorite game, I end up feeling like ######### instead of having fun. Normally I play the game a lot for a few months in-between breaks, but I feel absolutely crushed right now.