A tribute to Cheers.
For anyone who doesn't know what I mean, here's a breif summary. It's all about my friend now boyfriend (holy ######### I'm so lucky) @Cheers. He's been through so much, and I'm pretty sure we're reaching the end of his time with us. It's not about quitting the game; my man's dying.
Cancer, in his lungs. He's been through chemo and surgery and everything but they found it too late. His best mate cheated on him with his (at the time) girlfriend, shagging and all. He's been through a bunch of other bullshit I'm not even sure I'm allowed to say, and now we're losing him.
I've known him for all of 2 days at this point. I didn't realise, through talking on the forums, how bad it had gotten. Only recently did we start dming and now I truly realise that I'm going to lose one of my friends. His last hope was a surgery yesterday, and it didn't work. All other alternatives are too costly for the chance they have of succeeding, and so come this Thursday he's giving away everything to his little brother and spending as much time as he can with family.
So, I wanted to make a tribute to him. To my boyfriend Cheers. In the only way I truly know how; long, emotional game forum posts.
He's funny, kind, and was a great friend in the short time I knew him (I'm going to make the most of these next 3 days). He was entertaining and kept my company during my recent wonderful idea to play 10 hours of DBD. He's been amazing whilst talking through these forums too on each other's walls, and I'm so, so glad I got to meet him. We played some games since the introduction of cross-play (joined by @Respectfulnancymain) and the bastard even stream sniped me once <3. Literally perfect lol.
Don't worry, he was facecamped.
I guess, my point here is I'm going to miss him. I'm going to miss him a lot. Despite how hard he fought, cancer claimed another victim, another one close to me, another person I care for. So, as much as I wish I could spend 30 years apologising for everything that happened in your life, Cheers, I'd rather appreciate the time I got left with you.
It's a shame we didn't know each other IRL, even though you don't live too far away in comparison to many other people I know. Trust me, if we did, I'm sure we'd have been friends for a long time before now. But as much as I regret not being able to hug you and be there for you properly in your final days, I want to show as much support for you as I physically, possibly can.
Cheers, you were a valued member of these forums. People here liked you and you didn't play toxic (except in those KYF matches lmao). You were fun to hang around. You were amazing. I won't forget about you, ever, so while you're up in Heaven or whatever afterlife there truly is, please don't forget about me either.
One day, I'll meet you. For real. And I'm giving you that hug. I ######### promise you.
I'm sorry your life is being cut so short, so soon. I hope you go out happy and I hope you go out knowing you're loved and valued and treasured by so many people. Remember one thing, "No matter how much you hate yourself, or how much you think you mean nothing, you do to at least one person." That one person, right now, is me; so please don't die feeling like you're alone.
I guess this is one of the last times I'll be able to make this joke.
So, one final time, here's a cheers to my friend Cheers. I don't know how much time you have left, but make it good. Go out happy for me, and I'll see you again.
I promise you, I'll see you again.
I'm never going to forget you.
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Although I appreciate the thread, I deserve the ######### I've gone through. I was an absolute dick before Cancer, and it's changed me for the better regardless of the outcome being dead.
I'm going to miss the forums a ton, although I want to spend the rest of my life doing ######### I enjoy with my dad who I haven't been close with since the start of this.
Thanks though for making a thread about me, although most people will see this as a good riddance if anything.
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No. No they won't. You're so ######### valued and anyone who feels this is good riddance are the worst ######### people ever. You don't deserve any of this; absolutely nobody does. Even if it's changed you for the better you're still going to die.
Spending the rest of your life with your dad is understandable, and I wish you the best of luck. I won't forget about you man.
Die happy, for me, so when we meet again you'll be smiling.
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I'll go out with a smile :)
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You're literally perfect. I love you so much man.
I'll see you in Heaven and I'll make you so proud.
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If anyone says good riddance that says more about them than it does you for a start.
We've all made mistakes in our lives and done things we regret - that's part of life and part of growing up as well. Nobody deserves to suffer from Cancer, nobody...I've lost quite a few friends from it, one of which had been my best friend for my entire life, so there are things I understand but I will struggle to put into words.
@Cheers you've been a joy to have on these forums and we as a team, truly appreciate the time that you have spent with us and we will most definitely miss you. There's no words that I can say that express my deepest sorrow for what you are going through now, I just hope you can understand how much I wish this were different. I hope you can make peace with your father and spend your final days surrounded by the love of family & friends.
@GoodBoyKaru <3
My thoughts are with you both.
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Rest in peace man you were a big influence to a lot of us, even me. I will see you when god comes down take us all to a happier place. Just remember you are loved
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im making sure he sees both of these you guys <3
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We stand with you Cheers. Prayers and hope for you x infinity! 💜💜💜
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This is really rough. I don't know what to say except make the most of the time you have left and godspeed.
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Its always unfortunate to see something like this happen. I haven't had a proper conversation with him but our limited interactions were pleasant. I wish him nothing but the best.
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I don't know any of you, but I'm just paralyzed after reading all of this.
One of my biggest traumas in life is death itself, maybe due to I was 3 times near death. Also, because I'm a huge atheist. I have a complete scientific and logical mind, so I just think that there's nothing after life, just the void. I'll just disappear, leaving no tracks behind me.
Because of this death trauma I have, I just care about the present, about what's happening while I'm alive, because after that, I know that there will be nothing. This is just, what I believe.
Also, I have this trauma because I'm a coward. So seeing that you can handle your death with a smile and spending time with your family...is just...amazing. You are definitely not a coward like me.
I just wanted to tell you something, I don't know if it will help or not, but I want to say it.
In 2016 I started writing because of this fear about dying. I know I will die some day, but what I wrote, will not die. Maybe my body will disappear but what my thoughts, my words, that will remain.
I encourage you to write something, about what you like. Maybe your feelings, or just about you. Maybe your biography.
Writing will be powerful, even if you are not here. For the people who love you, and for those who don't know you.
I read once about philosophers, that they always said they will eventually die, but their ideas will remain.
Try to write Cheers, and you will remain.
I hope I could say something like "I'll see you in heaven" or something like that, but I just can't.
I don't know you, but goodbye.
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Thank you, you three; I'm passing on all the messages
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We have so little time in this world and a lot of us come to regret so many of our choices that we make to the point we begin to hate ourselves and everything, everyone around us. So when I see stuff like this when someone is at the end but refuses to give up on their own happiness and can STILL find a way to bring the same happiness to others, warms my heart. You we're and still are one of our best @Cheers, I hope everything works out for you and the biggest and best wishes to you and everyone else associated with you!
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I mean we all messed up sometimes not even I can get past my mistakes because I made so many, at times I break down into grief and sorrow that I can't even work on my writing projects anymore. I've seen so much death, and this and that about and yet at times I don't feel pity, or sorrow, but no joy either. Its just I've seen way too much for someone my age ( In which I'll be perfectly honest, I'm not that old) but this is just sad to see someone who's helped out a lot of us go. Again I'm amazed someone is able to leave with a smile on their face, reminds me of my Grandpa when I went to his funeral. It brought me slight comfort to know he died a happy man. Again @Cheers I pray for you that you find peace in the end. It may not seem like it but you have affected a lot of us in a positive way.
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Well here's a little update.
Me and cheers started dating. I love him so much and he means the world to me, and I'm so glad I got to meet him and I'm so glad I got to date him. I'm truly one of the luckiest people out there to have gotten this chance.
But today, at around midday, is when he's going to give up his phone and lose contact with the Internet. So, I wanna just tell everyone that he's seen everything that was posted here and I'm so so so so thankful for everyone's kind works.
There's always hope for a remission, and that's exactly what I'm holding on for.
Everyone who changed their profile picture, thank you so much. It means so much to me.
And finally one last thank you to @Cheers for being the best boyfriend I could ever ask for. You're so ######### amazing. Xxx
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Thank you everyone. My time here is up, hopefully my brother makes a good name for himself (on a completely different account) and thank you Karu for doing this for me <3 I love you so ######### much.
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And I love you too. So ######### much. You've been the best boyfriend I could ever ask for, and more.
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Damn...i'm so sorry that this happened to ya man. i hope you have the best days of yer life mate. and when yer up in Heaven. you'll be even more cuter and adorabubble <3
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Exactly what I've been telling him.
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Wow, I'm sorry. :/ I haven't interacted with you much, but I'd wish this on no one. I hope you and yours find peace. Sending you all good vibes.
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We'll miss you dude. Thanks for trying my survivor builds! :)
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and Cheers is the BEST boi ever known to mankind
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E x a c t l y.
Shame he won't ever believe me, though, and he's gonna say I am.
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But he will always be the bestboi, just like you goddamn cutie <3
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He tried to call me the bestest boy so please tell him how wrong he is thank you
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But chu are the best, and him the Bestest of the best
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Exactly he's the bestest
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@GoodBoyKaru and @Cheers
I am very sorry to read this, it shows strength, dedication, character and very much love of you both to be able to do this....i don't know either of you but i can relate to things as my dad passed with throat cancer. Cherish the time, laugh, cry, talk and very much try to enjoy what time there is, my thoughts are with you both as @Unicorn says we stand with you.
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I think I've seen this man twice around the forums but this really did make me sad. This was hard to read even though I've never had many interactions with Cheers. It's sad to see it happen and makes me want to enjoy life even though such an illusion can be shattered with simple actions out of our control.
Rest in piece to someone obviously great. He played DBD after all.
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Rest in piece to someone obviously great
I can promise you, he is great. Absolutely amazing, in fact. The best boyfriend in the world and I couldn't ask for anyone greater.
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Cheers is one of the best users this site has seen in a bit. Nothing but support from me ༼ つ ◕‿◕ ༽つ!
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I've seen your hilarious posts on this forum. We all will miss you. All of us. We do already...
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I'm bumping this thread just once for this. In case anyone wasn't aware (which they probably aren't because they're not like me and check his profile 24/7), then Cheers died on 13th September. In his sleep, so it was painless. He'll be missed. So missed, and remembered.
Goodbye, Cheers. And may you be happy wherever you are. I'll join you one day.
I love you so much. ❤️
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Bye, Cheers.
I'll see you in the fog again some day.
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I just keep checking cheers' profile to see "last online now", I just want him back here so bad, he was such a positive and nice guy, and I wanted to get to know him better.
@GoodBoyKaru remember that OoO midwich game we did with Nancy and cheers? Also, we played with Laura or wizard when nancy or I weren't able to play.
That was so much fun, when we did the head on saves, and CJ techs. Still to this day the most fun I've had in dbd.
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I do remember those games. I keep checking his discord to see him back online but then I realise he never will be. I hope he's happy wherever he is because I can't wait to see him soon.
He made the game fun and I love him so much. Also that was the first time I've ever gotten a CJ.
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It's ok karu, there are other worlds than these, and he is probably happy where he is right now, if cheers was watching over you right now (he might be) he would want you to be happy. This entire forum is here for you, and cheers.
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God I hope he isn't watching over me; seeing me crying on the bathroom floor for literally an hour isn't exactly how you want the first time you see your bf irl to be lol.
Hopefully he'll start in a couple months. Or a couple days. Just that he didn't have to see that one lmao.
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For clarification this is the cj in question:
This was probably one of the best streams I've ever had.
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