Tried ditching killer perks/addons for a day and I feel like i've become overrelliant on them.
Recently was given a personal challenge to not use any perks/addons for a match, since I considered myself decent enough, I felt comfortable enough to give it a try.
Needless to say I got stomped pretty hard. This went on for quite awhile, usually averaging around 0-1 kills, a few games managing to scrape by with 2 kills before I finally got a match that I felt was challenging enough to where I felt like I "earned" the 4K (Pretty sure my MMR dipped low enough at a few points to where I got some pretty easy games, so I didn't count those).
I was told that winning without perks/addons would be more satisfying, yet when I finally managed to "win" a match, I didn't feel any more satisfaction that I normally would have, I just felt like an idiot who just wasted a ton of time trying to win at a disadvantage. Yet after the experience I feel like I've mislead myself on my skill at the game, that I've become overreliant on perks and addons to help me win. I don't know if practicing without perks/addons more often is worth it, the frustration of loosing even more than I usually do in this post-MMR world just doesn't seem worth it.
This is all probably not worth stressing over, but this game is honestly one of the few I ever considered myself "good" at, and feeling like my perceived skill has been skewed this entire time is honestly messing with me super hard.
But enough about how I feel, to open this up for discussion. Anyone else ever feel the same way, and if so, how do you deal with it?